baah.

Self-reflection

2011-12-29T12:56:00.002+08:00

In a sense, I suppose quarter-life crises are a response to the fear that we aren't going to be good at anything.

Absence makes the heart

2011-12-27T21:24:00.002+08:00

I received your emailthrough a mailing list, no less.It took a few days before the melancholy touched me, this time.What happened between then and now, my friend?We thought we were buddies.You can't mourn a friendshipif you can't even remember what we had.

asdf

2011-12-23T00:46:00.002+08:00

oh dear. The last few posts have been quite depressing. That's not good.Um. unfortunately I don't know how to make it better right now.so to end off on a bright note,=)

I shouldn't be saying this.

2011-12-02T13:15:00.001+08:00

My grandma is only good for converting food into shit.and testing my patience.I'm sorry. Apparently i've failed the test.

Reflections

2011-10-05T00:45:00.002+08:00

There is more than one way of seeing things.There is also more than one way of saying things.But what matters is how you see things.

thoughts.

2011-08-31T19:08:00.002+08:00

My favourite smell is dark chocolate. do they make perfumes in that? Maybe i could go study chocolate. cadbury is not chocolate. is it okay to not love in order to protect yourself? or maybe there's something wrong in the way i love? funny, i only started crying after the blood started flowing.

why am i doing this?

2011-07-27T16:38:00.003+08:00

...dear God, why is this happening?It just hit me that I'm now implementing the very system I hated the most in school (other than CL exams) - CCA points....suddenly i don't want to do this anymore.

booty alert

2011-07-05T09:09:00.001+08:00

eh, more like opportunity alert.http://www.arionpress.com/apprenticeship.htmltime for a change in career?

Sore throat.

2011-06-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

1. The loudest sound I can make now is whistling. And coughing. 2. Three people gave me lozenges - colleague, student and the auntie selling tissue paper. I feel loved. ^^

gran's hobbies

2011-05-07T11:43:00.002+08:00

eatingsleepingclosing the windowswiping the table

2011-04-30T10:02:00.001+08:00

Dear God, is it really another long weekend? - It's too good to be true.Dear Apache, why aren't you listening to my html? gar.

untitled

2011-04-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

note to self: no more natto beans. i've earned a nickname: scaryface. somehow i don't mind.

Booty.

2011-04-04T00:17:00.001+08:00

..sending this from htc phone. I've gone over to the dark side..of typing on a touchscreen.

...anti bootyalert

2011-03-28T14:26:00.006+08:00

Do I really need a smartphone. (btw, targetted phone: htc incredible s)proscan read news while on the go. (no, i don't need twitter/fb/socialapps/games)can write notes on the go/update and check todolist/calendar - don't need to carry around my physical one, although i love it!can share phone photos quickly..the internet.check out places to go, things to do, how to get there..console emulator?

yi yi

2011-03-14T14:13:00.002+08:00

haven't really got my head around the title yet. or why certain scenes were put in.after reading the essays on Edward Yang's directing style etc, now I wish I could go back and watch it again. Rar. i really feel like a philistine now.moral of story: do your research before the film.thought: i think culture puts too much faith in humanity.

more randomness

2011-02-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

lovely movies:Lars and the real girlRabbit hole(Singapore shorts)overheard:father to daughter (paraphrased): You go for tuition, then you get top!thought:you know all those recycling projects/crafts we made for some school requirement or other? Didn't they end up in the trash bin more often than in the recycling bin?

i love you guys.

2011-02-19T20:11:00.001+08:00

Me: After I shat, I lost weight!Mum and Sis: Yey! Shit more!Thanks for the support, guys..

prayer

2011-02-13T23:38:00.001+08:00

lead us not into temptation - and deliver us from evil, for i am weak.

Sorry.

2011-02-13T23:06:00.001+08:00

C'mon, let's face it: Friendship day is just singles like me being sore losers.

More random thoughts

2011-01-26T21:22:00.002+08:00

What's this with listing the "Holy Bible" and then putting the author as "Unknown"? I mean, if you're already saying it's holy, then the identity of the author is a moot point, isn't it? (Heh what about other religious texts, then?)Plus point to taking the stairs instead of the lift: irritating that pesky yapping dog owned by one of the families on the lower floorsNote to self: If you're gonna be

random musings

2011-01-22T23:00:00.003+08:00

At makan session - new dinner etiquette: wait for photographers to finish taking photos of the dish before starting on it.How to make kids stop talking to you (permanently): "I'm sorry, I don't talk to unaccompanied minors."You know you're old when you can recognise half the songs on the "90s weekend" show. And sec 1s ask you to referee between justin bieber fans vs keith simpson (?) fans.Sex

Some letters

2011-01-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

Dear Mum and Dad,I have been a good daughter so please don't put unreasonable expectations on me like needing to be happy.Dear God,What's the point of giving someone a vagina, womb and ovaries if she isn't going to use them? It's a bloody waste of hormones, time, effort, emotions, and blood.Dear Marsala,You taste horrible but you sure make me high pretty fast.Lovesw

meme - me, me?

2011-01-12T22:43:00.002+08:00

If i had a choice, i would fill my fridge with:salad mixloose leaf tea blendssoy milkgreek yoghurtdark chocolatefruit?...eh. Just noticed that these are all easily prepared with zero/minimal cooking required. harhar.

The Tourist

2011-01-03T14:05:00.002+08:00

Warning: Spoilerish. Spoilt.Best poker face: ShawBest about-face: EliseBest new face: APBest save face: Chief guyBest no face: Inspector guy

Dear yq, Re: your card

2011-01-03T13:33:00.001+08:00

I am sorry for not meeting the well-wishes in your card.I love you, too.

anti-resolutions

2011-01-01T02:17:00.003+08:00

not combined.quit job and roam round the world.become a pastry chefget laid by 30letterpress apprenticepiano/music accompanistuh, blame this on the alcohol.

happy 2011

2010-12-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

combinedBe less messy next yearwear more hatsbackpackbe more firm/strictplay more pianotake care of skin

Stern note to self.

2010-12-28T01:34:00.002+08:00

Darnit. I have been abusing my body's tolerance to various things and it seems that once lost, it is irretrievable:1. tolerance to motion sickness2. tolerance to caffeine After being unable to sleep two nights in a row, I think the second item is pretty much confirmed. (must have been those turkish coffees in Israel that did me in)Argh.I think next up would be my tolerance to alcohol (as in not

back from israel.

2010-12-24T01:09:00.003+08:00

I hated the weather, but I loved everything else. Listening to "Israel's Greatest Hits 2010" and looking through photos - strangely, it evokes this feeling of loss. (or perhaps i just feel like this for every trip i take overseas.)Things that made an impression, just off the top of my mind:Barren hills and mountains in the evening, silent yet beautifulAn old man busking - gently (lovingly?)

so, i'm supposed to be wiser.

2010-12-10T11:10:00.002+08:00

But the same thing happens every year. I don't think that proverb makes any sense at all-until i start learning from my mistakes or telling myself to "wake up my idea".In any case. I always feel let down on this day, every year; it's because I expect something magical to happen. But I keep forgetting it's just another day of the year. Sorry for placing my stupid and unreasonable expectations on

Anti-wishlist

2010-12-08T23:37:00.002+08:00

Apologies for presumptuous post. But well..it's the only time of the year I can do this. Actually I've got everything I can possibly have; the best gift anyone could give me would be sharing a meal/a card with more handwritten than printed content. ^^Anti-wishlist, because I have too many of these things, and fear not loving them enough:1. Bag/wallet/pouch/holding containers2. Watches3. notebooks

It's all going to heck!

2010-11-23T22:10:00.004+08:00

Just realised my posts are becoming increasingly vapid in tone and content. So this is what the holidays do to my mind. (And when it's not the holidays, I don't blog at all.) I know, maybe I should get a twitter account instead!...nah.

xoxo

2010-11-23T21:53:00.002+08:00

Dear Cute Waiter,While I appreciate your presence, please have the grace to stay out of my sight so I can concentrate on my food/dinner companions.Thank you.

more, more booty...

2010-11-17T22:47:00.005+08:00

and Planescape: Torment. (Get it for only $9.99 at Good Old Games!)It's like christmas is here early. Gee. Now I'm feeling kinda guilty.

live range

2010-11-16T23:08:00.001+08:00

...I realised today that I miss the smell of gunpowder.

...more booty.

2010-11-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

Bebook reader Neo...this is bordering on the obsessive.

...more booty

2010-11-14T00:06:00.003+08:00

skinny jeans.natalie merchant's latest album.neverwinter nights.Insulated transparent cup ^^Oh, it's a slippery slope downwards...

BOOTY.

2010-11-12T10:21:00.001+08:00

Pentel GraphGear Mechanical pencilThey say idle hands do the devil's work. I couldn't agree more.Update: Oh, the weight and feel in my hands - just delicious. I can't stop touching it.

new obsession

2010-11-12T09:58:00.002+08:00

librarything. *goes mad adding all my books*

And so it ends.

2010-11-10T10:08:00.003+08:00

Streaming results out. Seeing their new classes somehow makes it more final than the last day of school.hm. I'm feeling this sense of loss, although I'm kinda relieved to see them off. I suppose you can't not get attached after spending two years together. Ah well.

On a happier note.

2010-11-07T13:06:00.001+08:00

I like chilling out with my grandma. All I have to do is just sit there and hold her hand. If I talk, she's fine. If we don't talk, she's fine too.

sorry for emo.

2010-11-07T12:55:00.002+08:00

Just realised today that I'm freakishly, crazily posessive. I thought i'd got over it, gotten more magnanimous perhaps, but apparently not. I just wish he'd hurry up and get out of my life. Then I won't have anything to be pissed off about.I'm like this jealous loner who drives away everyone around me and eventually ends up dying all alone in her miserable one-room flat. pfeh.Also. Alcohol and

degeneration

2010-11-05T20:09:00.001+08:00

drinking tonight. Perhaps the alcohol will fix my hopeless brain.

Jargon

2010-11-05T20:04:00.001+08:00

...What is a "hedge of protection"?And what does it mean to be covered by the blood - apparently for protection, according to the context of its usage?And for guardian angels to be surrounding whatever area is in dire need of their presence?What? What? You're just making me more confused! AUGH

Getting high, the healthy way

2010-10-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

...Other than imbibing the required amounts of alcohol, I have discovered:1. Exercise. 2. Donate blood, then exercise.3. Exercise, then play the piano.Of course the usual disclaimers apply. like. don't over-exert yourself after donating blood.

ASDF

2010-10-29T08:38:00.004+08:00

ASDF-sentence substitutean expression of outrage/incredulity at a particular event:"A new rule states that all uniformed defence personnel have to wear proper headdress when outdoors." "ASDF!"-synonymsWTF0_o

growing pains

2010-10-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

Saw an ad on a bus, for a kid's musical: Sesame Street Live presents: When Elmo Grows Up. Er. Well, for one, he'd be Emo first.Such is the state of the child today.

good morning

2010-10-20T08:26:00.002+08:00

Am on the search for healthy breakfast foods. Ideally, it should be:Balanced - not too much carb/fats, yet has other nutrients like proteinFast to eatMakes me feel full so I don't snack again when I reach workGives me energy but not too much...currently the one that fits the bill is a TimTam. huh.Actually it really has lots of energy. I remember eating a timtam once and then going for a swim; it

soundtrack of my life

2010-10-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when I wake up, there's this song that's stuck in my head and stubbornly remanins there playing itself all the way until I reach the bus stop and doze off in the bus. I'm guessing it has something to do with what I was preoccupied with the night before. So last night, I was reading The Oatmeal, and I woke up with "This Is the Song That Never Ends". Go figure.

update

2010-10-11T23:52:00.001+08:00

hmm. okay so it wasn't that huge a tube after all. But he will have to be cut up.

ouch.

2010-10-11T10:08:00.001+08:00

...I think if someone cut a hole in my leg and stuck a great huge tubeup my artery to my heart (while I was watching), i'd be freaked outlike heck. But I suppose it's better than cutting open my chest.still. I wish i could be there to hold my dad's hand while it wasbeing done. But I know God will be there. so that's all right.

Note to self: Never drink and bake.

2010-10-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

Realised at the last minute that I'd forgotten the baking soda. Thank God.Sprinkled it on top of the batter already poured into the tins and hurriedly stirred the mixture. Haha. That was funny.On the other hand - alcohol goes well with chocolate batter. My favourite part of baking is when the cakes are in the oven and you're cleaning out the mixing bowl by hand.

Reading

2010-10-03T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hmm, am making progress with my unread book count. Read The Road by Cormac McCarthy and Brave New World. The blurbs just fail to capture the sense of these books so I shall not bother to do so. Just...go read them.I like a good book when it offers more than just the plot and the characters. And each word is chosen with care. One of the many lines from Brave New World that made me smile despite it

2010-09-06T21:16:00.003+08:00

another new follower!uh. what's the big deal with this followers thing, anyway? ...although it's flattering...but...what's it for?In any case - hello!Dad's roasting coffeebeans. over a frying pan. on our stove.Apparently that's the traditional way. I'm just amused and want to report that unroasted coffeebeans aren't bitter at all and are actually quite chewy and make quite a nice snack. hmm.

playing with your tongue.

2010-09-04T10:29:00.001+08:00

because i was greedy and added too much almond essence to my coffee, i discovered something new: salt kind of takes the edge off the bitter taste. i think. but it kinda made the coffee taste funky. in a bad way.got to experiment abit more. hmm.

new news

2010-09-01T03:49:00.003+08:00

I have now a grand total of four followers! Hello hello! =)In honour of your support, I will celebrate by prettying up the scrollbar (only works in IE, though).No, seriously. I'd expected less traffic to this blog, much less followers. (though the word makes me sound like a cult master)In other news, I'd logged on to say:If you get up at weird times of the night to bake, does that mean you're

secret hobby

2010-08-26T12:07:00.002+08:00

I just realised I actually enjoy drawing stuff on MS Draw. And then I remembered my brother had told me he enjoyed it, too.

Water Flower (Yusuke Kinoshita)

2010-08-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

Lovely. it was just right - didn't say more than it needed to.

random stuff

2010-08-23T21:09:00.004+08:00

I was searching through my pencilcase today and to my horror I realised that I had no less than four types of red pens. And that's not including the red marker at home. guh.listening to getai outside (live band! albeit off-tune) and drinking milk earl grey tea (starbucks would call it a frappe). I love the sound of the rain pattering on concrete. I love rain in the city.Ooh, which reminds me that

=(

2010-08-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

need a new sink.

life's like that.

2010-08-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

Today I was just struck by how effortless it is for a single person to break your day...and for another person to make things better again.all the more reason to be on the alert to do good!

...mood swings.

2010-08-15T00:42:00.001+08:00

and i thought i'd be over it by now. was suddenly very depressed on the bus back. curing it with more choya. and watching amelie.

whee.

2010-08-11T21:57:00.002+08:00

...i checked my dashboard today, and i have a total of...3 followers! welcome, welcome.In other news - my sis received a call today. it went somewhat like this:caller: Hi, I'm calling from so and so fridge repair services. Is your fridge running?sis: Uh, yes.caller: then why are you not chasing after it?sis: argh!! *slams down the phone*her class must be pretty exciting.

Note to self

2010-07-08T09:16:00.001+08:00

Remember: It's all because of Him.

apologies in advance.

2010-06-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

spent my day being stood up and unmotivated to do anything. I have found the secret - Choya tastes really good with apple juice. Not the cheap manufactured kind; you can brew it yourself, at home. Just cut up some apples and throw them in a pot with boiling water and let it stew. Apparently.It's fun trying to play the piano while high on alcohol. When i try to concentrate, this haze descends on

world cup serial

2010-06-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

my dad's watching his favourite tv show on atdhe.net. It's not too bad, streaming is smooth and doesn't lag, and quality is rather decent.However, there's a few seconds' lag time between when our neighbours cheer and when he cheers. But that's not worth a hundred bucks, just to get the privilege to cheer earlier than those who didn't splurge.

doh!

2010-05-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

Have just started using this financial planning thingy (buxfer.com). It's pretty neat, although the name leaves much to be desired.The downside is, i just discovered i have $23.38 left to tide me over till payday. Hooray.

hmm.

2010-05-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

So i went to see a short film screening today, and the directors were there - and one of them really looked like someone i know. And their backgrounds are quite similar! It was weird.On the other hand, it was a nice screening. ^__^

note to self

2010-05-24T20:53:00.001+08:00

never eat raw garlic again.

boo.

2010-05-21T16:15:00.001+08:00

There are times when i just don't feel like doing anything at all. Though there's lots of things to do waiting for me. I used to get so motivated to clear my work. Is this burnout? On the other hand, i seem to function better when operating on low sleep levels. Cos i am crankier and so i am more strict. I feel more alive, somehow. Maybe it's cos i'm running on adrenaline. Weird. Maybe i need to

A suggestion

2010-05-16T21:29:00.001+08:00

Dear LTA (or whoever's in charge of noob drivers),Would you consider a redesign of your driving schools' circuits? The huge amount of maneuvering space in there does not sufficiently prepare new drivers for the ridiculously tight confines of carparks and private estates. Throw in crazy double parking into the mix and it's enough to stop us from driving. Hmm. Or perhaps that was your intention all

note to self

2010-05-10T21:08:00.001+08:00

need to set a budget for food. I think I spent an inordinate amount of money on food today. And also spent alot of time typing this. sigh.

Augh

2010-04-24T00:44:00.003+08:00

I hate cooking! *pulls hair out in frustration*Tried to make oats today, and boiled milk first, according to instructions on the tin. Following which i had to add the oats. The stupid milk boiled over, I threw in the oats, the milk kept boiling over, the oats refused to cook, and in the end i was left with a half-cooked, dried-up mush. Gah! It's so much easier in the oven because the heat is

whoa.

2010-04-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

Just sent a complaint letter-think it's the first one i've ever sent in my life.It was to RD, regarding their promotional materials. I received a package containing 5 "cheques", encouraging "deserving candidates" to reply and take part in the sweepstakes and win $200,000. Or something like that - I couldn't be bothered to read on. Also included was a fake "car key". I wonder how many they had to

bah.

2010-04-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

Was about to blog about google chrome whining that it isn't the default browser when i realised my sister used my computer without permission. I realise how silly I was to not think of it...after all, I myself used to go to crazy extents once the addiction hit me. but it's still pretty depressing to realise it and to see it all reflected in her, just like what happened to me. And i know that i'm

Errant Tables

2010-03-25T21:50:00.001+08:00

of the mircosoft word sort. gar, die tables!sometimes i wish i could code my exam papers in html. then things would really be easier. ><...hey, that's an idea!then print as pdf.hmm.

How to Lose Friends and Piss People Off

2010-03-15T16:29:00.003+08:00

AUGH! need to let off steam.people have said i'm a very patient person but one person has managed to piss me off in record time. her method: keep on asking the same question even after i've:* said no* told her that she's irritating me by asking me the same question* told her that she's probably irritated other people (was tempted to say "lost her friends", but didn't) by doing thisi think

Uh.

2010-03-06T02:39:00.002+08:00

1. the experiment was a failure. Now I'm even more puzzled about why those comments appeared under those posts.2. my tap water tastes funny.

...and there's sex.

2010-02-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

performance enhancerviagragirlsromancemeet new friendsphotos...oh man i don't believe i'm writing this. but! in the spirit of an experiment.

bwahahahaha.

2010-02-15T21:09:00.001+08:00

this is such a cheapo way to get traffic to my site.

gadget

2010-02-15T21:08:00.001+08:00

phonelaptopnetbookiphonepdahandheldcameramp3 player

evil

2010-02-15T21:07:00.001+08:00

haha just for the heck of it

google

2010-02-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

googlereaderbloggersearchmapsuh. also not sure on this one.

green card US

2010-02-15T21:04:00.002+08:00

US citizenshipeasy...uh. not sure about this one.

make money

2010-02-15T21:04:00.001+08:00

work from homeschemepayoutreturns

lose fat

2010-02-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

slim tummy lose weightfigurediet

Look ma, i have commenters!

2010-02-15T20:48:00.006+08:00

If you would only check the last few posts, then you would have noticed that some of these posts have more weird comments than others.And so i am going to conduct an experiment to find out which key words attract more comments. Do accept my humble apologies in advance, dear readers, for the gibberish about to follow.(hmm, this so reminds me of marking schemes. 0_o )

=(

2010-02-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

not enough time.

Google Reader = Evil

2010-02-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

I really, really hate the function where it automatically digs up old posts when you hit the bottom of the page, causing you to never really hit the bottom of the page. I just can't stop reading! I actually started panicking when I realised that it would never ever finish. Now I'm too traumatized to access the "recommended items" again. =(

..scratch the cookie, who stole the cookie jar?

2010-01-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

the entire biscuit tin has disappeared. It isn't in most of the possible hiding places. Now i have to look for the impossible ones. 0_o

huh, yet another rant on my looks.

2010-01-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

new advert up at mrt station today, forgot the brand. 's some eye cream for you to "look 10 years younger".huh, i don't need that cream. I already do look 10 years younger. So pooh-pooh to you, estee lauder.

law abiding citizen

2010-01-24T20:22:00.002+08:00

very thought-provoking. could have done with less gore, though. but all in all a pretty well put-together movie, that leaves you thinking. it doesn't really answer the questions it raises, but that's okay.

whee

2010-01-05T22:45:00.001+08:00

am turning into a stalker. 0_o

random thoughts

2009-12-25T01:57:00.005+08:00

didn't do much shopping this year. scared away by holiday-frenzied crowds. ugh. baked instead. 's more fun.oh. am i the only one who finds that peanut blossoms look kinda obscene? now eating it, though, is another matter entirely.. *smirk*things i find myself repeating over and over again:1. "I teach at ." pause. "It's in ."2. "I'm 25 this year." pause. "Yes, many people

Avatar

2009-12-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

loved it. Loved the concept, the graphics, the seamless look and feel of the whole thing, the world, the animals, the techy stuff, the cute moments, the fairytale ending...okay, maybe not the idealism but. it's nice to be able to dream sometimes. And Avatar certainly is a lovely dream. One that's difficult to shake off upon waking. In a good way. heh.

chasing dreams

2009-12-14T18:16:00.003+08:00

there was once i dreamt i was on a diving trip and jumped straight into the water without inflating my BC and without putting the regulator in my mouth. luckily someone pulled me up. dreams are weird--they grant you your desires and reveal your fears. And sometimes it's so real that i need to remind myself of what's really going on when i wake up.

cake at 4am

2009-11-21T04:19:00.003+08:00

Tonight's project was baking a chocolate cake in time for tomorrow morning. Because it's three days past my dad's birthday. >

conditioning

2009-11-14T00:42:00.002+08:00

...i've been conditioned to think about food everytime i see one of those transparent sandwich bags. I'm thinking about food everytime I look at the bag on my table, which contains...a tube of insect repellent.In other news, I found this brand of conditioner in the supermarket that's selling for only $1.95 per bottle. And it's not tested on animals. It is kinda liquid-ish but it works.

teh

2009-11-05T09:49:00.002+08:00

I just realised, the word 'teh' is not a typo in local context. heh.Am officially giving up on instant milk tea/bottled milk tea...the taste just doesn't cut it anymore. ugh. Can't beat fresh kopitiam teh c.

degeneration

2009-10-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my granny put her pants on back to front. And she thought it was normal. A few weeks before that she tried to pour herself a glass of water--only it was a saucer she used. Her speech is more slurred than before and I'm finding it difficult to understand what she's trying to say. I guess this trend is going to continue on...eventually she'll reach the stage where everyone around her will